THE VOYAGE.
The Picton boat was due to leave at half-past eleven. It was a
beautiful
night, mild, starry, only when they got out of the cab and started
to walk
down the Old Wharf that jutted out into the harbour, a faint wind
blowing
off the water ruffled under Fenella's hat, and she put up her hand
to keep
it on. It was dark on the Old Wharf, very dark; the wool sheds,
the cattle
trucks, the cranes standing up so high, the little squat railway
engine,
all seemed carved out of solid darkness. Here and there on a rounded
wood-
pile, that was like the stalk of a huge black mushroom, there hung
a
lantern, but it seemed afraid to unfurl its timid, quivering light
in all
that blackness; it burned softly, as if for itself.
Fenella's father pushed on with quick, nervous strides. Beside
him her
grandma bustled along in her crackling black ulster; they went so
fast that
she had now and again to give an undignified little skip to keep
up with
them. As well as her luggage strapped into a neat sausage, Fenella
carried
clasped to her her grandma's umbrella, and the handle, which was
a swan's
head, kept giving her shoulder a sharp little peck as if it too
wanted her
to hurry...Men, their caps pulled down, their collars turned up,
swung by;
a few women all muffled scurried along; and one tiny boy, only his
little
black arms and legs showing out of a white woolly shawl, was jerked
along
angrily between his father and mother; he looked like a baby fly
that had
fallen into the cream.
Then suddenly, so suddenly that Fenella and her grandma both leapt,
there
sounded from behind the largest wool shed, that had a trail of smoke
hanging over it, "Mia-oo-oo-O-O!"
"First whistle," said her father briefly, and at that
moment they came in
sight of the Picton boat. Lying beside the dark wharf, all strung,
all
beaded with round golden lights, the Picton boat looked as if she
was more
ready to sail among stars than out into the cold sea. People pressed
along
the gangway. First went her grandma, then her father, then Fenella.
There
was a high step down on to the deck, and an old sailor in a jersey
standing
by gave her his dry, hard hand. They were there; they stepped out
of the
way of the hurrying people, and standing under a little iron stairway
that
led to the upper deck they began to say good-bye.
"There, mother, there's your luggage!" said Fenella's
father, giving
grandma another strapped-up sausage.
"Thank you, Frank."
"And you've got your cabin tickets safe?"
"Yes, dear."
"And your other tickets?"
Grandma felt for them inside her glove and showed him the tips.
"That's right."
He sounded stern, but Fenella, eagerly watching him, saw that he
looked
tired and sad. "Mia-oo-oo-O-O!" The second whistle blared
just above
their heads, and a voice like a cry shouted, "Any more for
the gangway?"
"You'll give my love to father," Fenella saw her father's
lips say. And
her grandma, very agitated, answered, "Of course I will, dear.
Go now.
You'll be left. Go now, Frank. Go now."
"It's all right, mother. I've got another three minutes."
To her surprise
Fenella saw her father take off his hat. He clasped grandma in his
arms
and pressed her to him. "God bless you, mother!" she heard
him say.
And grandma put her hand, with the black thread glove that was
worn through
on her ring finger, against his cheek, and she sobbed, "God
bless you, my
own brave son!"
This was so awful that Fenella quickly turned her back on them,
swallowed
once, twice, and frowned terribly at a little green star on a mast
head.
But she had to turn round again; her father was going.
"Good-bye, Fenella. Be a good girl." His cold, wet moustache
brushed her
cheek. But Fenella caught hold of the lapels of his coat.
"How long am I going to stay?" she whispered anxiously.
He wouldn't look
at her. He shook her off gently, and gently said, "We'll see
about that.
Here! Where's your hand?" He pressed something into her palm.
"Here's a
shilling in case you should need it."
A shilling! She must be going away for ever! "Father!"
cried Fenella.
But he was gone. He was the last off the ship. The sailors put their
shoulders to the gangway. A huge coil of dark rope went flying through
the
air and fell "thump" on the wharf. A bell rang; a whistle
shrilled.
Silently the dark wharf began to slip, to slide, to edge away from
them.
Now there was a rush of water between. Fenella strained to see with
all
her might. "Was that father turning round?"--or waving?--or
standing
alone?--or walking off by himself? The strip of water grew broader,
darker. Now the Picton boat began to swing round steady, pointing
out to
sea. It was no good looking any longer. There was nothing to be
seen but
a few lights, the face of the town clock hanging in the air, and
more
lights, little patches of them, on the dark hills.
The freshening wind tugged at Fenella's skirts; she went back to
her
grandma. To her relief grandma seemed no longer sad. She had put
the two
sausages of luggage one on top of the other, and she was sitting
on them,
her hands folded, her head a little on one side. There was an intent,
bright look on her face. Then Fenella saw that her lips were moving
and
guessed that she was praying. But the old woman gave her a bright
nod as
if to say the prayer was nearly over. She unclasped her hands, sighed,
clasped them again, bent forward, and at last gave herself a soft
shake.
"And now, child," she said, fingering the bow of her
bonnet-strings, "I
think we ought to see about our cabins. Keep close to me, and mind
you
don't slip."
"Yes, grandma!"
"And be careful the umbrellas aren't caught in the stair rail.
I saw a
beautiful umbrella broken in half like that on my way over."
"Yes, grandma."
Dark figures of men lounged against the rails. In the glow of their
pipes
a nose shone out, or the peak of a cap, or a pair of surprised-looking
eyebrows. Fenella glanced up. High in the air, a little figure,
his hands
thrust in his short jacket pockets, stood staring out to sea. The
ship
rocked ever so little, and she thought the stars rocked too. And
now a
pale steward in a linen coat, holding a tray high in the palm of
his hand,
stepped out of a lighted doorway and skimmed past them. They went
through
that doorway. Carefully over the high brass-bound step on to the
rubber
mat and then down such a terribly steep flight of stairs that grandma
had
to put both feet on each step, and Fenella clutched the clammy brass
rail
and forgot all about the swan-necked umbrella.
At the bottom grandma stopped; Fenella was rather afraid she was
going to
pray again. But no, it was only to get out the cabin tickets. They
were
in the saloon. It was glaring bright and stifling; the air smelled
of
paint and burnt chop-bones and indiarubber. Fenella wished her grandma
would go on, but the old woman was not to be hurried. An immense
basket of
ham sandwiches caught her eye. She went up to them and touched the
top one
delicately with her finger.
"How much are the sandwiches?" she asked.
"Tuppence!" bawled a rude steward, slamming down a knife
and fork.
Grandma could hardly believe it.
"Twopence each?" she asked.
"That's right," said the steward, and he winked at his
companion.
Grandma made a small, astonished face. Then she whispered primly
to
Fenella. "What wickedness!" And they sailed out at the
further door and
along a passage that had cabins on either side. Such a very nice
stewardess came to meet them. She was dressed all in blue, and her
collar
and cuffs were fastened with large brass buttons. She seemed to
know
grandma well.
"Well, Mrs. Crane," said she, unlocking their washstand.
"We've got you
back again. It's not often you give yourself a cabin."
"No," said grandma. "But this time my dear son's
thoughtfulness--"
"I hope--" began the stewardess. Then she turned round
and took a long,
mournful look at grandma's blackness and at Fenella's black coat
and skirt,
black blouse, and hat with a crape rose.
Grandma nodded. "It was God's will," said she.
The stewardess shut her lips and, taking a deep breath, she seemed
to
expand.
"What I always say is," she said, as though it was her
own discovery,
"sooner or later each of us has to go, and that's a certingty."
She
paused. "Now, can I bring you anything, Mrs Crane? A cup of
tea? I know
it's no good offering you a little something to keep the cold out."
Grandma shook her head. "Nothing, thank you. We've got a few
wine
biscuits, and Fenella has a very nice banana."
"Then I'll give you a look later on," said the stewardess,
and she went
out, shutting the door.
What a very small cabin it was! It was like being shut up in a
box with
grandma. The dark round eye above the washstand gleamed at them
dully.
Fenella felt shy. She stood against the door, still clasping her
luggage
and the umbrella. Were they going to get undressed in here? Already
her
grandma had taken off her bonnet, and, rolling up the strings, she
fixed
each with a pin to the lining before she hung the bonnet up. Her
white
hair shone like silk; the little bun at the back was covered with
a black
net. Fenella hardly ever saw her grandma with her head uncovered;
she
looked strange.
"I shall put on the woollen fascinator your dear mother crocheted
for me,"
said grandma, and, unstrapping the sausage, she took it out and
wound it
round her head; the fringe of grey bobbles danced at her eyebrows
as she
smiled tenderly and mournfully at Fenella. Then she undid her bodice,
and
something under that, and something else underneath that. Then there
seemed a short, sharp tussle, and grandma flushed faintly. Snip!
Snap!
She had undone her stays. She breathed a sigh of relief, and sitting
on
the plush couch, she slowly and carefully pulled off her elastic-sided
boots and stood them side by side.
By the time Fenella had taken off her coat and skirt and put on
her flannel
dressing-gown grandma was quite ready.
"Must I take off my boots, grandma? They're lace."
Grandma gave them a moment's deep consideration. "You'd feel
a great deal
more comfortable if you did, child," said she. She kissed Fenella.
"Don't
forget to say your prayers. Our dear Lord is with us when we are
at sea
even more than when we are on dry land. And because I am an experienced
traveller," said grandma briskly, "I shall take the upper
berth."
"But, grandma, however will you get up there?"
Three little spider-like steps were all Fenella saw. The old woman
gave a
small silent laugh before she mounted them nimbly, and she peered
over the
high bunk at the astonished Fenella.
"You didn't think your grandma could do that, did you?"
said she. And as
she sank back Fenella heard her light laugh again.
The hard square of brown soap would not lather, and the water in
the bottle
was like a kind of blue jelly. How hard it was, too, to turn down
those
stiff sheets; you simply had to tear your way in. If everything
had been
different, Fenella might have got the giggles...At last she was
inside, and
while she lay there panting, there sounded from above a long, soft
whispering, as though some one was gently, gently rustling among
tissue
paper to find something. It was grandma saying her prayers...
A long time passed. Then the stewardess came in; she trod softly
and
leaned her hand on grandma's bunk.
"We're just entering the Straits," she said.
"Oh!"
"It's a fine night, but we're rather empty. We may pitch a
little."
And indeed at that moment the Picton Boat rose and rose and hung
in the air
just long enough to give a shiver before she swung down again, and
there
was the sound of heavy water slapping against her sides. Fenella
remembered she had left the swan-necked umbrella standing up on
the little
couch. If it fell over, would it break? But grandma remembered too,
at
the same time.
"I wonder if you'd mind, stewardess, laying down my umbrella,"
she
whispered.
"Not at all, Mrs. Crane." And the stewardess, coming
back to grandma,
breathed, "Your little granddaughter's in such a beautiful
sleep."
"God be praised for that!" said grandma.
"Poor little motherless mite!" said the stewardess. And
grandma was still
telling the stewardess all about what happened when Fenella fell
asleep.
But she hadn't been asleep long enough to dream before she woke
up again to
see something waving in the air above her head. What was it? What
could
it be? It was a small grey foot. Now another joined it. They seemed
to
be feeling about for something; there came a sigh.
"I'm awake, grandma," said Fenella.
"Oh, dear, am I near the ladder?" asked grandma. "I
thought it was this
end."
"No, grandma, it's the other. I'll put your foot on it. Are
we there?"
asked Fenella.
"In the harbour," said grandma. "We must get up,
child. You'd better have
a biscuit to steady yourself before you move."
But Fenella had hopped out of her bunk. The lamp was still burning,
but
night was over, and it was cold. Peering through that round eye
she could
see far off some rocks. Now they were scattered over with foam;
now a gull
flipped by; and now there came a long piece of real land.
"It's land, grandma," said Fenella, wonderingly, as though
they had been at
sea for weeks together. She hugged herself; she stood on one leg
and
rubbed it with the toes of the other foot; she was trembling. Oh,
it had
all been so sad lately. Was it going to change? But all her grandma
said
was, "Make haste, child. I should leave your nice banana for
the
stewardess as you haven't eaten it." And Fenella put on her
black clothes
again and a button sprang off one of her gloves and rolled to where
she
couldn't reach it. They went up on deck.
But if it had been cold in the cabin, on deck it was like ice.
The sun was
not up yet, but the stars were dim, and the cold pale sky was the
same
colour as the cold pale sea. On the land a white mist rose and fell.
Now
they could see quite plainly dark bush. Even the shapes of the umbrella
ferns showed, and those strange silvery withered trees that are
like
skeletons...Now they could see the landing-stage and some little
houses,
pale too, clustered together, like shells on the lid of a box. The
other
passengers tramped up and down, but more slowly than they had the
night
before, and they looked gloomy.
And now the landing-stage came out to meet them. Slowly it swam
towards
the Picton boat, and a man holding a coil of rope, and a cart with
a small
drooping horse and another man sitting on the step, came too.
"It's Mr. Penreddy, Fenella, come for us," said grandma.
She sounded
pleased. Her white waxen cheeks were blue with cold, her chin trembled,
and she had to keep wiping her eyes and her little pink nose.
"You've got my--"
"Yes, grandma." Fenella showed it to her.
The rope came flying through the air, and "smack" it
fell on to the deck.
The gangway was lowered. Again Fenella followed her grandma on to
the
wharf over to the little cart, and a moment later they were bowling
away.
The hooves of the little horse drummed over the wooden piles, then
sank
softly into the sandy road. Not a soul was to be seen; there was
not even
a feather of smoke. The mist rose and fell and the sea still sounded
asleep as slowly it turned on the beach.
"I seen Mr. Crane yestiddy," said Mr. Penreddy. "He
looked himself then.
Missus knocked him up a batch of scones last week."
And now the little horse pulled up before one of the shell-like
houses.
They got down. Fenella put her hand on the gate, and the big, trembling
dew-drops soaked through her glove-tips. Up a little path of round
white
pebbles they went, with drenched sleeping flowers on either side.
Grandma's delicate white picotees were so heavy with dew that they
were
fallen, but their sweet smell was part of the cold morning. The
blinds
were down in the little house; they mounted the steps on to the
veranda. A
pair of old bluchers was on one side of the door, and a large red
watering-
can on the other.
"Tut! tut! Your grandpa," said grandma. She turned the
handle. Not a
sound. She called, "Walter!" And immediately a deep voice
that sounded
half stifled called back, "Is that you, Mary?"
"Wait, dear," said grandma. "Go in there."
She pushed Fenella gently into
a small dusky sitting-room.
On the table a white cat, that had been folded up like a camel,
rose,
stretched itself, yawned, and then sprang on to the tips of its
toes.
Fenella buried one cold little hand in the white, warm fur, and
smiled
timidly while she stroked and listened to grandma's gentle voice
and the
rolling tones of grandpa.
A door creaked. "Come in, dear." The old woman beckoned,
Fenella
followed. There, lying to one side on an immense bed, lay grandpa.
Just
his head with a white tuft and his rosy face and long silver beard
showed
over the quilt. He was like a very old wide-awake bird.
"Well, my girl!" said grandpa. "Give us a kiss!"
Fenella kissed him.
"Ugh!" said grandpa. "Her little nose is as cold
as a button. What's that
she's holding? Her grandma's umbrella?"
Fenella smiled again, and crooked the swan neck over the bed-rail.
Above
the bed there was a big text in a deep black frame:--
"Lost! One Golden Hour
Set with Sixty Diamond Minutes.
No Reward Is Offered
For It Is Gone For Ever!"
"Yer grandma painted that," said grandpa. And he ruffled
his white tuft
and looked at Fenella so merrily she almost thought he winked at
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