MARRIAGE A LA MODE.
On his way to the station William remembered with a fresh pang
of
disappointment that he was taking nothing down to the kiddies. Poor
little
chaps! It was hard lines on them. Their first words always were
as they
ran to greet him, "What have you got for me, daddy?" and
he had nothing.
He would have to buy them some sweets at the station. But that was
what he
had done for the past four Saturdays; their faces had fallen last
time when
they saw the same old boxes produced again.
And Paddy had said, "I had red ribbing on mine bee-fore!"
And Johnny had said, "It's always pink on mine. I hate pink."
But what was William to do? The affair wasn't so easily settled.
In the
old days, of course, he would have taken a taxi off to a decent
toyshop and
chosen them something in five minutes. But nowadays they had Russian
toys,
French toys, Serbian toys--toys from God knows where. It was over
a year
since Isabel had scrapped the old donkeys and engines and so on
because
they were so "dreadfully sentimental" and "so appallingly
bad for the
babies' sense of form."
"It's so important," the new Isabel had explained, "that
they should like
the right things from the very beginning. It saves so much time
later on.
Really, if the poor pets have to spend their infant years staring
at these
horrors, one can imagine them growing up and asking to be taken
to the
Royal Academy."
And she spoke as though a visit to the Royal Academy was certain
immediate
death to any one...
"Well, I don't know," said William slowly. "When
I was their age I used to
go to bed hugging an old towel with a knot in it."
The new Isabel looked at him, her eyes narrowed, her lips apart.
"Dear William! I'm sure you did!" She laughed in the
new way.
Sweets it would have to be, however, thought William gloomily,
fishing in
his pocket for change for the taxi-man. And he saw the kiddies handing
the
boxes round--they were awfully generous little chaps--while Isabel's
precious friends didn't hesitate to help themselves...
What about fruit? William hovered before a stall just inside the
station.
What about a melon each? Would they have to share that, too? Or
a
pineapple, for Pad, and a melon for Johnny? Isabel's friends could
hardly
go sneaking up to the nursery at the children's meal-times. All
the same,
as he bought the melon William had a horrible vision of one of Isabel's
young poets lapping up a slice, for some reason, behind the nursery
door.
With his two very awkward parcels he strode off to his train. The
platform
was crowded, the train was in. Doors banged open and shut. There
came
such a loud hissing from the engine that people looked dazed as
they
scurried to and fro. William made straight for a first-class smoker,
stowed away his suit-case and parcels, and taking a huge wad of
papers out
of his inner pocket, he flung down in the corner and began to read.
"Our client moreover is positive...We are inclined to reconsider...in
the
event of--" Ah, that was better. William pressed back his flattened
hair
and stretched his legs across the carriage floor. The familiar dull
gnawing in his breast quietened down. "With regard to our decision--"
He
took out a blue pencil and scored a paragraph slowly.
Two men came in, stepped across him, and made for the farther corner.
A
young fellow swung his golf clubs into the rack and sat down opposite.
The
train gave a gentle lurch, they were off. William glanced up and
saw the
hot, bright station slipping away. A red-faced girl raced along
by the
carriages, there was something strained and almost desperate in
the way she
waved and called. "Hysterical!" thought William dully.
Then a greasy,
black-faced workman at the end of the platform grinned at the passing
train. And William thought, "A filthy life!" and went
back to his papers.
When he looked up again there were fields, and beasts standing
for shelter
under the dark trees. A wide river, with naked children splashing
in the
shallows, glided into sight and was gone again. The sky shone pale,
and
one bird drifted high like a dark fleck in a jewel.
"We have examined our client's correspondence files..."
The last sentence
he had read echoed in his mind. "We have examined ..."
William hung on to
that sentence, but it was no good; it snapped in the middle, and
the
fields, the sky, the sailing bird, the water, all said, "Isabel."
The same
thing happened every Saturday afternoon. When he was on his way
to meet
Isabel there began those countless imaginary meetings. She was at
the
station, standing just a little apart from everybody else; she was
sitting
in the open taxi outside; she was at the garden gate; walking across
the
parched grass; at the door, or just inside the hall.
And her clear, light voice said, "It's William," or "Hillo,
William!" or
"So William has come!" He touched her cool hand, her cool
cheek.
The exquisite freshness of Isabel! When he had been a little boy,
it was
his delight to run into the garden after a shower of rain and shake
the
rose-bush over him. Isabel was that rose-bush, petal-soft, sparkling
and
cool. And he was still that little boy. But there was no running
into the
garden now, no laughing and shaking. The dull, persistent gnawing
in his
breast started again. He drew up his legs, tossed the papers aside,
and
shut his eyes.
"What is it, Isabel? What is it?" he said tenderly. They
were in their
bedroom in the new house. Isabel sat on a painted stool before the
dressing-table that was strewn with little black and green boxes.
"What is what, William?" And she bent forward, and her
fine light hair
fell over her cheeks.
"Ah, you know!" He stood in the middle of the room and
he felt a stranger.
At that Isabel wheeled round quickly and faced him.
"Oh, William!" she cried imploringly, and she held up
the hair-brush:
"Please! Please don't be so dreadfully stuffy and--tragic.
You're always
saying or looking or hinting that I've changed. Just because I've
got to
know really congenial people, and go about more, and am frightfully
keen
on--on everything, you behave as though I'd--" Isabel tossed
back her hair
and laughed--"killed our love or something. It's so awfully
absurd"--she
bit her lip--"and it's so maddening, William. Even this new
house and the
servants you grudge me."
"Isabel!"
"Yes, yes, it's true in a way," said Isabel quickly.
"You think they are
another bad sign. Oh, I know you do. I feel it," she said softly,
"every
time you come up the stairs. But we couldn't have gone on living
in that
other poky little hole, William. Be practical, at least! Why, there
wasn't enough room for the babies even."
No, it was true. Every morning when he came back from chambers
it was to
find the babies with Isabel in the back drawing-room. They were
having
rides on the leopard skin thrown over the sofa back, or they were
playing
shops with Isabel's desk for a counter, or Pad was sitting on the
hearthrug
rowing away for dear life with a little brass fire shovel, while
Johnny
shot at pirates with the tongs. Every evening they each had a pick-a-back
up the narrow stairs to their fat old Nanny.
Yes, he supposed it was a poky little house. A little white house
with
blue curtains and a window-box of petunias. William met their friends
at
the door with "Seen our petunias? Pretty terrific for London,
don't you
think?"
But the imbecile thing, the absolutely extraordinary thing was
that he
hadn't the slightest idea that Isabel wasn't as happy as he. God,
what
blindness! He hadn't the remotest notion in those days that she
really
hated that inconvenient little house, that she thought the fat Nanny
was
ruining the babies, that she was desperately lonely, pining for
new people
and new music and pictures and so on. If they hadn't gone to that
studio
party at Moira Morrison's--if Moira Morrison hadn't said as they
were
leaving, "I'm going to rescue your wife, selfish man. She's
like an
exquisite little Titania"--if Isabel hadn't gone with Moira
to Paris--if--
if...
The train stopped at another station. Bettingford. Good heavens!
They'd
be there in ten minutes. William stuffed that papers back into his
pockets; the young man opposite had long since disappeared. Now
the other
two got out. The late afternoon sun shone on women in cotton frocks
and
little sunburnt, barefoot children. It blazed on a silky yellow
flower
with coarse leaves which sprawled over a bank of rock. The air ruffling
through the window smelled of the sea. Had Isabel the same crowd
with her
this week-end, wondered William?
And he remembered the holidays they used to have, the four of them,
with a
little farm girl, Rose, to look after the babies. Isabel wore a
jersey and
her hair in a plait; she looked about fourteen. Lord! how his nose
used to
peel! And the amount they ate, and the amount they slept in that
immense
feather bed with their feet locked together...William couldn't help
a grim
smile as he thought of Isabel's horror if she knew the full extent
of his
sentimentality.
...
"Hillo, William!" She was at the station after all, standing
just as he
had imagined, apart from the others, and--William's heart leapt--she
was
alone.
"Hallo, Isabel!" William stared. He thought she looked
so beautiful that
he had to say something, "You look very cool."
"Do I?" said Isabel. "I don't feel very cool. Come
along, your horrid old
train is late. The taxi's outside." She put her hand lightly
on his arm
as they passed the ticket collector. "We've all come to meet
you," she
said. "But we've left Bobby Kane at the sweet shop, to be called
for."
"Oh!" said William. It was all he could say for the moment.
There in the glare waited the taxi, with Bill Hunt and Dennis Green
sprawling on one side, their hats tilted over their faces, while
on the
other, Moira Morrison, in a bonnet like a huge strawberry, jumped
up and
down.
"No ice! No ice! No ice!" she shouted gaily.
And Dennis chimed in from under his hat. "Only to be had from
the
fishmonger's."
And Bill Hunt, emerging, added, "With whole fish in it."
"Oh, what a bore!" wailed Isabel. And she explained to
William how they
had been chasing round the town for ice while she waited for him.
"Simply
everything is running down the steep cliffs into the sea, beginning
with
the butter."
"We shall have to anoint ourselves with butter," said
Dennis. "May thy
head, William, lack not ointment."
"Look here," said William, "how are we going to
sit? I'd better get up by
the driver."
"No, Bobby Kane's by the driver," said Isabel. "You're
to sit between
Moira and me." The taxi started. "What have you got in
those mysterious
parcels?"
"De-cap-it-ated heads!" said Bill Hunt, shuddering beneath
his hat.
"Oh, fruit!" Isabel sounded very pleased. "Wise
William! A melon and a
pineapple. How too nice!"
"No, wait a bit," said William, smiling. But he really
was anxious. "I
brought them down for the kiddies."
"Oh, my dear!" Isabel laughed, and slipped her hand through
his arm.
"They'd be rolling in agonies if they were to eat them. No"--she
patted
his hand--"you must bring them something next time. I refuse
to part with
my pineapple."
"Cruel Isabel! Do let me smell it!" said Moira. She flung
her arms across
William appealingly. "Oh!" The strawberry bonnet fell
forward: she
sounded quite faint.
"A Lady in Love with a Pineapple," said Dennis, as the
taxi drew up before
a little shop with a striped blind. Out came Bobby Kane, his arms
full of
little packets.
"I do hope they'll be good. I've chosen them because of the
colours.
There are some round things which really look too divine. And just
look at
this nougat," he cried ecstatically, "just look at it!
It's a perfect
little ballet."
But at that moment the shopman appeared. "Oh, I forgot. They're
none of
them paid for," said Bobby, looking frightened. Isabel gave
the shopman a
note, and Bobby was radiant again. "Hallo, William! I'm sitting
by the
driver." And bareheaded, all in white, with his sleeves rolled
up to the
shoulders, he leapt into his place. "Avanti!" he cried...
After tea the others went off to bathe, while William stayed and
made his
peace with the kiddies. But Johnny and Paddy were asleep, the rose-red
glow had paled, bats were flying, and still the bathers had not
returned.
As William wandered downstairs, the maid crossed the hall carrying
a lamp.
He followed her into the sitting-room. It was a long room, coloured
yellow. On the wall opposite William some one had painted a young
man,
over life-size, with very wobbly legs, offering a wide-eyed daisy
to a
young woman who had one very short arm and one very long, thin one.
Over
the chairs and sofa there hung strips of black material, covered
with big
splashes like broken eggs, and everywhere one looked there seemed
to be an
ash-tray full of cigarette ends. William sat down in one of the
arm-
chairs. Nowadays, when one felt with one hand down the sides, it
wasn't to
come upon a sheep with three legs or a cow that had lost one horn,
or a
very fat dove out of the Noah's Ark. One fished up yet another little
paper-covered book of smudged-looking poems...He thought of the
wad of
papers in his pocket, but he was too hungry and tired to read. The
door
was open; sounds came from the kitchen. The servants were talking
as if
they were alone in the house. Suddenly there came a loud screech
of
laughter and an equally loud "Sh!" They had remembered
him. William got
up and went through the French windows into the garden, and as he
stood
there in the shadow he heard the bathers coming up the sandy road;
their
voices rang through the quiet.
"I think its up to Moira to use her little arts and wiles."
A tragic moan from Moira.
"We ought to have a gramophone for the weekends that played
'The Maid of
the Mountains.'"
"Oh no! Oh no!" cried Isabel's voice. "That's not
fair to William. Be
nice to him, my children! He's only staying until to-morrow evening."
"Leave him to me," cried Bobby Kane. "I'm awfully
good at looking after
people."
The gate swung open and shut. William moved on the terrace; they
had seen
him. "Hallo, William!" And Bobby Kane, flapping his towel,
began to leap
and pirouette on the parched lawn. "Pity you didn't come, William.
The
water was divine. And we all went to a little pub afterwards and
had sloe
gin."
The others had reached the house. "I say, Isabel," called
Bobby, "would
you like me to wear my Nijinsky dress to-night?"
"No," said Isabel, "nobody's going to dress. We're
all starving.
William's starving, too. Come along, mes amis, let's begin with
sardines."
"I've found the sardines," said Moira, and she ran into
the hall, holding a
box high in the air.
"A Lady with a Box of Sardines," said Dennis gravely.
"Well, William, and how's London?" asked Bill Hunt, drawing
the cork out of
a bottle of whisky.
"Oh, London's not much changed," answered William.
"Good old London," said Bobby, very hearty, spearing
a sardine.
But a moment later William was forgotten. Moira Morrison began
wondering
what colour one's legs really were under water.
"Mine are the palest, palest mushroom colour."
Bill and Dennis ate enormously. And Isabel filled glasses, and
changed
plates, and found matches, smiling blissfully. At one moment, she
said, "I
do wish, Bill, you'd paint it."
"Paint what?" said Bill loudly, stuffing his mouth with
bread.
"Us," said Isabel, "round the table. It would be
so fascinating in twenty
years' time."
Bill screwed up his eyes and chewed. "Light's wrong,"
he said rudely, "far
too much yellow"; and went on eating. And that seemed to charm
Isabel,
too.
But after supper they were all so tired they could do nothing but
yawn
until it was late enough to go to bed...
It was not until William was waiting for his taxi the next afternoon
that
he found himself alone with Isabel. When he brought his suit-case
down
into the hall, Isabel left the others and went over to him. She
stooped
down and picked up the suit-case. "What a weight!" she
said, and she gave
a little awkward laugh. "Let me carry it! To the gate."
"No, why should you?" said William. "Of course,
not. Give it to me."
"Oh, please, do let me," said Isabel. "I want to,
really." They walked
together silently. William felt there was nothing to say now.
"There," said Isabel triumphantly, setting the suit-case
down, and she
looked anxiously along the sandy road. "I hardly seem to have
seen you
this time," she said breathlessly. "It's so short, isn't
it? I feel
you've only just come. Next time--" The taxi came into sight.
"I hope
they look after you properly in London. I'm so sorry the babies
have been
out all day, but Miss Neil had arranged it. They'll hate missing
you.
Poor William, going back to London." The taxi turned. "Good-bye!"
She
gave him a little hurried kiss; she was gone.
Fields, trees, hedges streamed by. They shook through the empty,
blind-
looking little town, ground up the steep pull to the station.
The train was in. William made straight for a first-class smoker,
flung
back into the corner, but this time he let the papers alone. He
folded his
arms against the dull, persistent gnawing, and began in his mind
to write a
letter to Isabel.
...
The post was late as usual. They sat outside the house in long
chairs
under coloured parasols. Only Bobby Kane lay on the turf at Isabel's
feet.
It was dull, stifling; the day drooped like a flag.
"Do you think there will be Mondays in Heaven?" asked
Bobby childishly.
And Dennis murmured, "Heaven will be one long Monday."
But Isabel couldn't help wondering what had happened to the salmon
they had
for supper last night. She had meant to have fish mayonnaise for
lunch and
now...
Moira was asleep. Sleeping was her latest discovery. "It's
so wonderful.
One simply shuts one's eyes, that's all. It's so delicious."
When the old ruddy postman came beating along the sandy road on
his
tricycle one felt the handle-bars ought to have been oars.
Bill Hunt put down his book. "Letters," he said complacently,
and they all
waited. But, heartless postman--O malignant world! There was only
one, a
fat one for Isabel. Not even a paper.
"And mine's only from William," said Isabel mournfully.
"From William--already?"
"He's sending you back your marriage lines as a gentle reminder."
"Does everybody have marriage lines? I thought they were only
for
servants."
"Pages and pages! Look at her! A Lady reading a Letter,"
said Dennis.
"My darling, precious Isabel." Pages and pages there
were. As Isabel read
on her feeling of astonishment changed to a stifled feeling. What
on earth
had induced William ...? How extraordinary it was...What could have
made
him ...? She felt confused, more and more excited, even frightened.
It
was just like William. Was it? It was absurd, of course, it must
be
absurd, ridiculous. "Ha, ha, ha! Oh dear!" What was she
to do? Isabel
flung back in her chair and laughed till she couldn't stop laughing.
"Do, do tell us," said the others. "You must tell
us."
"I'm longing to," gurgled Isabel. She sat up, gathered
the letter, and
waved it at them. "Gather round," she said. "Listen,
it's too marvellous.
A love-letter!"
"A love-letter! But how divine!" "Darling, precious
Isabel." But she had
hardly begun before their laughter interrupted her.
"Go on, Isabel, it's perfect."
"It's the most marvellous find."
"Oh, do go on, Isabel!"
"God forbid, my darling, that I should be a drag on your happiness."
"Oh! oh! oh!"
"Sh! sh! sh!"
And Isabel went on. When she reached the end they were hysterical:
Bobby
rolled on the turf and almost sobbed.
"You must let me have it just as it is, entire, for my new
book," said
Dennis firmly. "I shall give it a whole chapter."
"Oh, Isabel," moaned Moira, "that wonderful bit
about holding you in his
arms!"
"I always thought those letters in divorce cases were made
up. But they
pale before this."
"Let me hold it. Let me read it, mine own self," said
Bobby Kane.
But, to their surprise, Isabel crushed the letter in her hand.
She was
laughing no longer. She glanced quickly at them all; she looked
exhausted.
"No, not just now. Not just now," she stammered.
And before they could recover she had run into the house, through
the hall,
up the stairs into her bedroom. Down she sat on the side of the
bed. "How
vile, odious, abominable, vulgar," muttered Isabel. She pressed
her eyes
with her knuckles and rocked to and fro. And again she saw them,
but not
four, more like forty, laughing, sneering, jeering, stretching out
their
hands while she read them William's letter. Oh, what a loathsome
thing to
have done. How could she have done it! "God forbid, my darling,
that I
should be a drag on your happiness." William! Isabel pressed
her face
into the pillow. But she felt that even the grave bedroom knew her
for
what she was, shallow, tinkling, vain...
Presently from the garden below there came voices.
"Isabel, we're all going for a bathe. Do come!"
"Come, thou wife of William!"
"Call her once before you go, call once yet!"
Isabel sat up. Now was the moment, now she must decide. Would she
go with
them, or stay here and write to William. Which, which should it
be? "I
must make up my mind." Oh, but how could there be any question?
Of course
she would stay here and write.
"Titania!" piped Moira.
"Isa-bel?"
No, it was too difficult. "I'll--I'll go with them, and write
to William
later. Some other time. Later. Not now. But I shall certainly write,"
thought Isabel hurriedly.
And, laughing, in the new way, she ran down the stairs. |
